Monday, January 31, 2011

another monday night

biozone biozone biozone
biology quest (quiz + test)
math quizzes, 2
english essay thingy

-sigh- i'm so tired, i'm not even in the mood of 'skipping'...if that made sense.

i do think i might be getting sick though. for the entire day, my stomach as been feeling wonky and my head is a little light headed. not to mention the sudden rise in temperature around my neck.
hopefully i feel better.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

a post just for you !

i love best friends.
2:20 just made me crazy so once it's over, i will replay again.
dim dim dim, i need it
replayed for 3872935872308741283449495904930t384798 times (i don't know what 't' represents).
kai looks so adorable/girly in the first image that appeared in the best friend vid.
they have totally matured and grown up, no hate.
Woke up with the strangest dream. People tell me sometimes, you dream what you desire deep inside, no matter how much you deny it on the outside (of course, other than the nightmares because those are just projections of your deepest and darkest fears). So after this dream, I am now more confused (not really) and feel a little awkward.

Great Sunday morning, eh?

No sarcasm. The sun is really nice. If only I can wake up to the sun everyday, I think going to school won't be so bad.

The Shawshank Redemption

Time for bed.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Sleepless in Seattle...
Saturday well spent.


Friday, January 28, 2011


I have 5 hours and 20 minutes left to do my CAS. Also, I just realized I didn't do my tutor homework...which I will still try and finish by tomorrow. I will try my best to pour my heart and soul into it...ha..ha...

Anyways, today, I have stumbled upon a situation where I don't really know what to do. Usually, there will always be a side where it is more 'right'. At will have a more positive effect compared to the second option. The problem I was trying to help with was where one person has to give up their happiness/feelings in order to make the her/him happy, who is the person he/she loves. He/she did not really show much affection towards her/him.

Normally, I would tell the person: "If you really love that person, you would let her/him go because seeing that person happy will make you happy."

I believe that is true love.

In this case, not just because the opposite partner did not show any affections, but...they are already together. For two people to be together, that means the feelings are mutual...which means there should be some 'love' involved.
In a relationship, the two people should be equal. There shouldn't be one person whose always doing more than the other...constantly.

In this case, the person I am helping seems to be more in love, putting in more efforts, and is the one deciding to give up so the person he/she love will not be 'suffering'. The person he/she love isn't exactly 'suffering' just because of their problems...but rather other things as well. I find it awful for the opposite person to dump all him/her anger onto the person I'm helping. (Sorry, so confusing).

Either way, I mean...deep inside, I wanted to tell the person I'm helping to not say anything. I find it unfair for him/her to let go of her/his feelings to satisfy the opposite person. I mean...from the beginning till the end...every action made was all based on the opposite person.


Wednesday, January 26, 2011


I want to fly, waiting for the sunrise.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

sick of...

making the first move. thinking about it. initiating it. worrying about it. only one. waiting. making the last move. alone in the end.
was a mistake.

Monday, January 24, 2011

Sunday, January 23, 2011


tired, very tired.


looking back at how i was before, i realized how much i have changed. o-o'''
stumbled upon my old facebook messages between someone (who i don't speak to anymore now) and from gr 8 till now, i have a huge typing difference. wow.

it's crazy how random, confusing and weird i was (and maybe still am).

why i don't talk to the person? 'cause i randomly added that person! i doubt i will ever do that again...haha

Friday, January 21, 2011

these four walls

deadman wonderland
in state of confusion. D:

Thursday, January 20, 2011

a free day

even though things aren't going super well, academically, today was an awesome day! totally sucks, of course. math test was...okay-ish...i was one of the losers who freaked out about the exponent (don't judge!). english was fun...i got high.

a tiring morning and a high afternoon. perfect!
i suppose i was being a little weird today, haha...those who sat around me knew. xD
had a hand obsession :D and during english, i suppoe the coffee candy's sugar was taking effect. :P

to make a long story short: i was tickling the palms of people's hands. o-o'' haha.

no tok tomorrow. yay?

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

what's amazing to me?

Even though I already blogged an entry today, I realized I forgot to blog about something I have always wanted to mention/share. It's kind of weird though...

Anyways, I noticed that whenever something amazing airs on or like...well, whenever I see, hear, or read something amazing, I would always shiver. I would kind of like...get this goosebump feelings and shake/shiver. My entire body would just feel all 'oh-my-gawsh!' kind of...
I don't know how to describe this sensation, but yeah. That always happen when I get blown away by how awesome the anime is, the anime ending, the story turned out to be. Well, just an idea in general. When I hear an amazing singer or song, I would also react the same.

I guess that's how I judge what's SUPER SUPER SUPER (xblah) good.

On the other hand, I would also shiver and get goosebumps (same feeling-ish) when I hear something REALLY bad. Like, weird and awful out of tune song and etc..
Of course, it's easy to tell the difference.

But I just find it weird how I would get the same reaction towards 2 complete different things.

Anyhow, just wanted to share that. Don't judge. :D

my day

think it's quite a depressing day for me today, actually D:

-sigh- so tired. time to prep for math and English!
(woke up from a 2 hour nap which had no effect)

Monday, January 17, 2011

m o o n o n t h e w a t e r

Full moon sways
gently in the night of one fine day

On my way
looking for a moment with my dear

Full moon waves
slowly on the surface of the lake

You are there
smiling in my arms for all those years

What a fool
I dont know about tomorrow
what its like to be

I was sure
couldn't let myself to go
even though I feel
the end

Oh my fair
floating like a bird in her wings

Sunday, January 16, 2011

New Boyfriend? That's right!

Godfrey Gao <3
195cm...back off, people!

First Asian man to showcase the luxurious Louis Vuitton products!


A weekend of Jay Chou music, BECK, and sleep!

What more can I ask for?
If the whole week can be like this, I would die happy! xP
Time to update my wishlist!

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Just because the director of this film was the one who ruined Twilight further more...I don't know what to think about this. x . x''
Plus, some parts of this looks 'meh' and fake-ish. On a good note, it is being filmed here in Vancouver and Leonardo DiCaprio is one of the producers.

Friday, January 14, 2011


As you all may know, this is the big talk recently...the zodiac has changed! I still don't know how I feel about this because some of the Sagittarius applies to I am the new zodiac, Ophiuchus. Some people feel that this new zodiac only applies to the babies born now (or a certain year), not everybody while others just completely rejects this idea. Yeah, I don't know how to respond. I htink it's pretty interesting I mean...I never really fit in with EVERYTHING of Sagittarius.

Some people I know actually really belonged with their zodiac, but now it's changed. I just read a little bit about the Ophiuchus zodiac and I don't think it applies to some of the people I know who has changed.

The awesome thing that makes me kind of 'believe' in this is that my birthday, December 17, is the BORDERLINE of Ophiuchus and Sagittarius. Wonky, eh?

The New Zodiac


Leave a comment below on what you think!

Thursday, January 13, 2011


I'm hoping to update this blog daily, like how I did when I first started. :P
-sigh- the youth I had then...

Anyways, very tired today. D:
Finished my art project! Time for the artist statement.

worry about bio lab
worry about tutor homework
worry about history final
worry about history project
worry about japanese worksheet
worry about 2 math quizzes
worry about math chapter test
worry about art photomontage project
worry about copying bio notes
worry about biozone pages
worry about tok essay
worry about my back...

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Monday, January 10, 2011

To-Do List

-Bio Design Lab Prep
-Bio Stem Cell work sheets
-Bio Questions
-Math (?) -- catch up
-Actually finish reading The Outsider
-Do tutor homework
-CAS journal entries
-Finish art project

-Study for History
-Study for Jap

Is Black Swan Really That Good?

I have been looking forward to watching Black Swan, but I doubt I will go to the theatres. Don't think it is THAT good...I would probably love it after watching it, but I don't find that it's the kind of movie that would cause a frenzy among EVERYONE. o-o'' Didn't seem like a movie everyone would watch...same for Tron Legacy.

Anyways, while people go crazy about Black Swan, I'm crazy about this:
Gnomeo and Juliet. How cute. xP Everyone loves gnomes, right?

Sunday, January 9, 2011

a picture in a while

My new found love... ~ back to bio!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

I will love you until my dying day.

Friday, January 7, 2011

first day back at school

Supposedly, I arrived on Jan. 5th 8:00pm so I should've been at school on the 6th. I wanted to 'pretend' to be sick and rest at home to fix my jetlag...but karma kicked in and I actually got sick. Ended up staying home with a fever and slept till 5pm. Woke up and studied History till 8pm or so (while trying to find out what's for bio and tok and all that) and then read some shoujo mangas.

The first day back today wasn't so bad. Turns out Ms. Ho wanted me to take the test next class and Ms. Yasui scheduled my quiz for Tuesday 4th block (my spare). I cancelled my tutor class this week and shall devote my entire weekend to study math and go over everything I have completely

Also, I need to finish the bio lab and study for bio. -sigh- So confused with what's going on with bio. The questions and design lab thing. Have absolutely no idea what's going on. Since Ms. Chan is chilled, I'm sure she'll give me an extension? Or just explain it to me and all...hopefully, clearly though.

All I'm scared for is math. o-o'' Gotta face the Peters. After hearing from people today talking about the math final...I'm kind of getting scared. There's one part easy and one part hard. Bruno says that too and Bruno is if he says a part is hard...then it must be terrifying for me. -cries- And supposedly, the later test that I'm taking is different and harder. -sigh- This sucks for a person who sucks at math.

Anyways, I am so sleepy...I shall go to bed early.
Perhaps I can see the doctor tomorrow to see if I'm okay. Still taking tynenol for the whole day-ish today. -sigh-

Good night to you all. :)
(Will slowly be giving souvenirs...things are scattered around the house and my room...not pleasant)

Thursday, January 6, 2011

home and tired...

When you guys age a year, I age ten.