Friday, April 27, 2012

can't believe

how my life is falling apart.

though i promised myself to stop ranting and post happy stuff,
but it's really not working.  motivation to go to school decreases
more and more each day...
don't even feel like studying with all the overwhelming news.

feels like things have been coming on to me like waves,
dropping my hope further and further down, near nothing

never once thought that it was just a few years,
when everything was perfect
and now...everything is all broken apart.

never thought i had to fear every day...
not because of my paranoia or a result of my insomnia
but actually fear for my safety...
fear about what to do in the future
fear about what will come after that

don't know if i could really get through this anymore

Thursday, April 26, 2012

one of the oldies in the Japanese industry, i believe...(since yasui-sensei knows him haha!)

he's the guy who sang 'one more time, one more chance' for the film '5 centimeter per second'

a beautiful, distinct voice. very strong and just...
really sings out, filled with passion and emotion - i love !

Saturday, April 21, 2012


Until the last moment you’ve consoled me
But it’s as if you don’t know.
What is it that makes me miserable
I swell up at the days that are to be forgotten
More so than for the days when I will be left alone
It pains me that I can’t give you
More so than I can’t have you

“I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
I only wanted to tell you”

You turned away, but even then you worried about me
But it’s as if you don’t know
what is it that makes things so hard on me
It’s not the
Loneliness that is left alone,
The tear stained heart,
Entwined moment,
The one and only truth,
It’s the sorrowfulness that everything that will be forgotten
I swell up at my image even erasing the memories
The image that I would get so familiar with

“I never meant to hurt you
Only wanted to tell you”
“That I am still in love with you”

never got to show my Tiffany

should have upload this months ago, but yeah...

i love you, thank yous.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

slip away

i think i'm finally starting to feel the panic and lack of time.  last minute crash courses?
time to stop procrastinating and start focusing (or try to..) !

been having some really, really bad back pains...
see how things go before i go see a doctor. man, perhaps my sleeping posture really is that bad? anyways, history!
president chart! argh!

this is what's getting me through

Thursday, April 12, 2012

one more month to go!

sadly, this is technically our last month!

may exams will go by SO fast and then we will be free~ a little depressing to know i won't be seeing the same faces i have been seeing everyday for the past two years.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

listening to chasing cars...

and i was thinking about the long email exchanges i had. pen pals. e-pals?

i miss those huge, extended e-mails i had.

those long conversations that took some real time to write up and read.

the excited feeling i get when i check my inbox.

maybe i should start them again?
start actually getting to know people?

Monday, April 2, 2012

sad to say...

i must admit, sadly, i like this song way too much for my own good. to justify myself, it's catchy! read an article and totally agree that it's justin timberlake's style. anyways, no worries...i'm totally not going to turn into a screaming fangirl and start buying the disc and using his perfume... no no no no no no nooooo, never!

although i must admit, i was listening to his christmas songs in the car and during bio class (don't ask how).

don't judge!