Tuesday, September 16, 2014

attempting progress

so it's been a while since my last blog post...

After that has happened, I won't lie, but death has been on my mind for a while.  I thought about what it means to live and to die.  And just a whole bunch of random junk, haha.  I was depressed, especially since before, I was sort of going through an identity crisis...trying to figure (as usual, like everyone) what I want out of life...what I want to do.

Monday, September 15, 2014

trying to commit to this once in a while

I still see my draft for my Japan: Day 3 blog post.  I have no idea when I will get back to it and it sorta sucks 'cause I don't remember as clearly anymore (definitely not day 3 since I had my first hangover).  I also already have my Japan photos installed in my laptop or my external, so I will eventually upload those on Facebook or something.  Been wanting to change my profile picture to a Japan one, but it will make me miss Japan -cries-

Just recently changed my lock screen to the scenery from Skytree and I already feel like I want to go back, but the blue is just too pretty for me to change back. ><

I woke up at 3AM and then forced myself to sleep some more (after tossing and turning until 3AM so I don't know if that's counted as sleeping), and finally, I woke at 7AM.  I found my brother awake downstairs and wondered if he wanted to gym...but he was uncertain and I told myself to go back to sleep.  As you can probably assume, I couldn't fall back asleep and ended up showering.

Now I am faced with the dilemma of whether I should watch anime or do my reading. -sigh- Class at 4:30 so I have around 6 hours before I need to get ready and transit.  Thank gosh readings for tutorial today is short...but I have no idea how I'll deal with tomorrow's...I am so doomed for tomorrow.

life. D:

Saturday, September 13, 2014

finally, i decided to blog...

So I have been really lazy, exhausted and too preoccupied to blog (but that's just a load of bs to cover my procrastination).  I finally decided to blog 'cause just a few minutes ago, as I proceeded to wash off my clay mask (as a part of my relaxing day) and put on a sheet mask, I learned from the sister I do not speak with anymore that someone we knew passed away.

She passed away three months ago.

Still sort of registering in my mind since I don't exactly know how to feel about it.  She wasn't someone close, but it still upsets and gets me because just in June, I saw her...we had dim sum. The news is both good and bad since this old lady was already 99 years old and was trying her best to go through daily life (she has a hard time being away from her daughter).  For her age, it was amazing how alert she was, but at the same time, she had her health difficulties.

I think it really gets to me because it will be her 100th birthday in two months and just in June, my family and I were thinking of celebrating for her.  Her family was excited that she would turn 100 and the Queen would write her a letter to congratulate her. She had always been nice to my siblings and I when we were younger, her and her family.

May she rest in peace.