Bussed home with a mannequin head! :D
Friday, April 8, 2011
so so so so so depressed
it was the best day and the worst day.
i never thought that fate would impact my feelings to much, even knowing the fact that i'm a romanticist. never knew that i would be so affected by these 'coincidences', as some of you call it.
-sigh-
so happy.
before spring break, i thought i fell love at first sight.
during spring break, i thought i would be over it and was almost over it.
today, thought i might see him again and it was 'the last chance' before i forget completely.
for some reason, when i was buying starbucks while explaining to a certain someone about him, he just walk right past me, in front of me! i was shocked...i mean, i kind of forgot about him, and just as i was speaking of him, there he was!
after that, it was just countless bumping into each other at the mall. how small can a place be?
perhaps i'm thinking too much into all this...
probably am, but i was happy. i am happy.
><~ -sigh- i did entertain a certain someone by searching for him, looking over my shoulders, and almost bumping into him. lol.
i was doing a 'shoulder check' and scanning around, until i heard a : "turn around, turn around, turn around" from a certain someone and found that he was going to collide with me!
i'm so obsessed. D:
after all those 'coincidences', what made my day was that at the end of my 'day', he was on the same bus! what are the odds?
but once i am home and reality hits me, i started thinking sensibly and reconsidered all the possibilities...i realized this is all just fantasy and just me. -sigh-
felt like i just had a lemon.
D: -sigh-
i never thought that fate would impact my feelings to much, even knowing the fact that i'm a romanticist. never knew that i would be so affected by these 'coincidences', as some of you call it.
-sigh-
so happy.
before spring break, i thought i fell love at first sight.
during spring break, i thought i would be over it and was almost over it.
today, thought i might see him again and it was 'the last chance' before i forget completely.
for some reason, when i was buying starbucks while explaining to a certain someone about him, he just walk right past me, in front of me! i was shocked...i mean, i kind of forgot about him, and just as i was speaking of him, there he was!
after that, it was just countless bumping into each other at the mall. how small can a place be?
perhaps i'm thinking too much into all this...
probably am, but i was happy. i am happy.
><~ -sigh- i did entertain a certain someone by searching for him, looking over my shoulders, and almost bumping into him. lol.
i was doing a 'shoulder check' and scanning around, until i heard a : "turn around, turn around, turn around" from a certain someone and found that he was going to collide with me!
i'm so obsessed. D:
after all those 'coincidences', what made my day was that at the end of my 'day', he was on the same bus! what are the odds?
but once i am home and reality hits me, i started thinking sensibly and reconsidered all the possibilities...i realized this is all just fantasy and just me. -sigh-
felt like i just had a lemon.
D: -sigh-
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
purpose...
Feeling teary-eyed. Now I remember why I refused to continue watching One Piece anime...to avoid the fact that both Whitebeard and Ace died...
so I quickly read the manga to get over it (like that I did with Itachi's death).
Decided to watch some One Piece while eating instant noodles (late dinner since I took a nap), I realized I'm getting teary eyes, though it's not the purpose of One Piece. Obviously, it's for comedy and action, etc., but yeah...I'm WAY too emotional. D: This sucks.
Just hearing about how Whitebeard is gone and pirates are terrorizing Whitebeard's territories, taking advantage of his death, breaks my heart once again. D:
-sigh-
I miss Ace. D:
When Luffy wakes up, it will be more heartbreaking to see him hit reality and realize his brother is gone. =(
and that's my anime rant..
so I quickly read the manga to get over it (like that I did with Itachi's death).
Decided to watch some One Piece while eating instant noodles (late dinner since I took a nap), I realized I'm getting teary eyes, though it's not the purpose of One Piece. Obviously, it's for comedy and action, etc., but yeah...I'm WAY too emotional. D: This sucks.
Just hearing about how Whitebeard is gone and pirates are terrorizing Whitebeard's territories, taking advantage of his death, breaks my heart once again. D:
-sigh-
I miss Ace. D:
When Luffy wakes up, it will be more heartbreaking to see him hit reality and realize his brother is gone. =(
and that's my anime rant..
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
awful day...
i can't believe i managed to survive the whole day on 2 hours of sleep and not pass out.
not only did i not get enough sleep, it turns out my hard work studying bio was a waste. i studied the wrong thing D8 focussed too much on mitosis and meiosis rather than the enzyme, the calculations, etc.. so basically, i bombed the test...no kidding. -sigh-
that totally ruined my day though after the test, i felt much more at ease.
thought i was going to pass out at timmy's when eating my breakfast. had to prevent my face from falling straight into my french vanilla several times.
either way, math was enjoyable. i guess all that laughing sucked out the bits of energy i had from the caffeine...which explains why i'm so dead during english. and i LOVE english class...
(although my essay didn't turn out too well. :S i really need to improve my writing...structure and evidence.)
i feel awful during volunteer because i semi-snapped at the little kid. D:
he was frustrated and i was frustrated. -sigh- i guess i was frustrated because of the sleep and the fact that it's been weeks and he's still unwilling to do his homework, but just play around. and how when i try to explain to him the things he don't get, he gets annoyed and ignores me...telling me: 'it's so easy!' and 'it's so boring!' to avoid doing his work.
either way, i'm at fault though. no reason for me to get annoyed at the kid...-sigh- i'm awful today! -- on the bright side, i did manage to get him to complete ALL his homework today! -cheers-
time to rest a bit, do japanese, study history, and sleep early! (perhaps reach another sappy, romance shoujo manga? :DD)
not only did i not get enough sleep, it turns out my hard work studying bio was a waste. i studied the wrong thing D8 focussed too much on mitosis and meiosis rather than the enzyme, the calculations, etc.. so basically, i bombed the test...no kidding. -sigh-
that totally ruined my day though after the test, i felt much more at ease.
thought i was going to pass out at timmy's when eating my breakfast. had to prevent my face from falling straight into my french vanilla several times.
either way, math was enjoyable. i guess all that laughing sucked out the bits of energy i had from the caffeine...which explains why i'm so dead during english. and i LOVE english class...
(although my essay didn't turn out too well. :S i really need to improve my writing...structure and evidence.)
i feel awful during volunteer because i semi-snapped at the little kid. D:
he was frustrated and i was frustrated. -sigh- i guess i was frustrated because of the sleep and the fact that it's been weeks and he's still unwilling to do his homework, but just play around. and how when i try to explain to him the things he don't get, he gets annoyed and ignores me...telling me: 'it's so easy!' and 'it's so boring!' to avoid doing his work.
either way, i'm at fault though. no reason for me to get annoyed at the kid...-sigh- i'm awful today! -- on the bright side, i did manage to get him to complete ALL his homework today! -cheers-
time to rest a bit, do japanese, study history, and sleep early! (perhaps reach another sappy, romance shoujo manga? :DD)
Monday, April 4, 2011
heard some great news that made my day :D
a certain someone awesome is coming back on friday! :D
><''~ so glad, so fast...too fast. D: a day is not enough! =( ~ and i know many others think that too -hint hint-
--
first day back in school! a day 2 which meant i can go home early. no morning class which meant this is actually a short day!
i overslept and missed tutor class though...which i felt really, really bad about. x . x'' tutor called me and i guess we will be rescheduling.
HUGE bio test tomorrow and i have NOT touched my biology stuff at all! i even forgot where i placed my biozone. im so dead. it's 8:30pm and i am STILL slacking! well, i only watched the new episode of Gintama (which made my life...i can totally die happy right now after seeing gin's epic faces and know that zura, no...'zura ja nai, katsura desu', has turned into a women...lawl). had some food as well...and yeah. o-o'' read some manga... x . x''
time to get to work! -sigh-
><''~ so glad, so fast...too fast. D: a day is not enough! =( ~ and i know many others think that too -hint hint-
--
first day back in school! a day 2 which meant i can go home early. no morning class which meant this is actually a short day!
i overslept and missed tutor class though...which i felt really, really bad about. x . x'' tutor called me and i guess we will be rescheduling.
HUGE bio test tomorrow and i have NOT touched my biology stuff at all! i even forgot where i placed my biozone. im so dead. it's 8:30pm and i am STILL slacking! well, i only watched the new episode of Gintama (which made my life...i can totally die happy right now after seeing gin's epic faces and know that zura, no...'zura ja nai, katsura desu', has turned into a women...lawl). had some food as well...and yeah. o-o'' read some manga... x . x''
time to get to work! -sigh-
Sunday, April 3, 2011
last bit of spring break
spending my last bit of spring break reading sappy shoujo one-shots. :D
rewatching a few of my favorite shoujo anime.
while reading my history materials and thinking about polishing up my art project (which I have not touched the entire spring break...sigh).
finished THOBA though...great news. :P
watching some anime, read a bit of history, watch some more anime, read some more history. that's how i encourage myself to work. :)
now...about bio...
rewatching a few of my favorite shoujo anime.
while reading my history materials and thinking about polishing up my art project (which I have not touched the entire spring break...sigh).
finished THOBA though...great news. :P
watching some anime, read a bit of history, watch some more anime, read some more history. that's how i encourage myself to work. :)
now...about bio...
Friday, April 1, 2011
Samskeyti Sigur Rós
as we sat there listening to the carolers. i wanted to tell Brian that it was over, that everything would be okay. but that was a lie plus i couldn't speak anyways. i wish there was some way for us to go back and undo the past, but there wasn't. there was nothing we could do. so i just stayed silent and tried to telepathically communicate about how sorry i was about what had happened. and i thought about all the grief and sadness and f*cked up stuff in the world and made me want to escape. and i wish with all my heart that we could just leave this world behind. rise like two angels in the night and just magically...
disappear.
disappear.
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