after a nap.

I took a nap today! I have skipped my naps for 2 days and it feels AWFUL. Well, this time, it was not 4 hours or 6 hours...but instead 3 hours. Haha.

I kind of woke up to the sound of fireworks since today, the olympic torch came here. Sadly, by the time the fireworks woke me up, it was over.

Anyways, I SHOULD be doing my science homework, but instead, I was on deviantart art stalking once again! Many people are so amazing. Sigh - I'm going on deviantart to get my ego stroked. Haha.

My friend is an amazing artist, although she's being SO modest and not admitting it. If you want, check her out on deviantart. Her user is Kataruki.


.s e r e n i t y.



:R E S E T:

an entry before night enters.

Before I go to bed, well, before I watch one more episode of Gintama then go to bed, I want to write one last entry for today.

I have been talking to a friend of mine for the past...hours? This friend of mine told me I'm a good listener. I'm actually, in a way, shocked. Am I a good listener? I wonder.

Well, not many people come to me to talk since I look like an unreliable person, but I guess it just feels good to know that someone can rely on me.
Anyways, why am I up so late at 1:30am in the morning? Well, I was drawing in my new sketchbook! Yay~

Anyways, I shall depart from this blog that no one reads.

Night.

a joyous moment.

I ended up choosing anime over nap, haha. Well, I'm watching Gintama episode 75 and I just have to share it. Gintoki is so cool in the beginning episodes, I just realized because now, he's acting like an old man (oo-san): doing nothing.
~Well, all he does is read Shounen Jump, drink strawberry milk, eat sweet things, gamble, etc.. He's awesome.

Anyways, what got me laughing was:

-Amanto (aliens) complaining how Gintoki is swinging his sword around which is against the laugh-

Gin: Yeah, blah blah blah blah shut the f*** up!
What is this? Mating season?

harhar. You probably won't find it as funny if you didn't watch it.

Here's a summary: This anime basically takes place back in the ol' days of Japan where Samurais are the fighters. Amantos, aliens, invaded Edo and now they're REALLY modernized (like us). There are still people who are against the fact that humans are living under Amantos and continues to fight like the way of the samurai.

This may sound serious, but trust me...Gintama is completely ridiculously awesome. xD So random and epic nearly every episode. Some did get me crying though =D

Oh and the title of this episode is:

Episode 75: Complain About Your Job Outside Of Your House, Not Inside! Since That's The Case, I'll Complain A Little, Okay? "Land of the Samurai," It's Been A Long Time Since Our Country Was Called That...It's Because One And A Half Years Since That Anime That Began That Way Started. A LOT of Stuff Has Happened Since Then, Huh? And Well, We Thought It Was About Time To Look Back And Reflect On It, But NO, You Guys Said, "God, A Recap Episode? Are You Guys Getting Lazy?" Hey, It's Hard To Make An Anime, So Stop Complaining.

Awesome anime title, isn't it?
Just to let you whoever is reading this blog entry know, '"Land of the Samurai," It's been a long time since our country was called that...,' this part is the beginning introduction in every episode of Gintama for the first 20 ish episodes supposedly, it's funny. -laughs-

Anyways, I shall continue watching...

'Blah blah blah blah, shut the f*** up!' xD

being happy is very hard

Trying to stay happy the whole time during school is very tiring ad energy-consuming. I get hyped up about many things and when I start feeling tired...well, when I show that I'm tired, it looks more like I'm depressed or not feeling well.

I wonder what kind of image/impression do I give people?

Anyways, aside from my thoughts. I got over my Math and Science test! Yay!

I didn't study AT ALL for them so I pretty much winged it. Somewhat, I am proud...though I shouldn't be.

But hey, for a person who watches anime 24/7 intensively and goes hardcore about anime, I'm quite okay, arent I?
I do have mental prepareness for failing though.

It's a habit, a good habit, to think I will do bad. If I think that way, I don't have too high of an expectation so if I do bad, I will be like ==''' not as depressed, but if I do good, I will be extra happy + =D.
So stupid. haha.

Anyways, I am once again: bored. I already lurked around Neopets for a bit and yeah, nothing much happened. I 'cooked' myself a snack to eat! Yay! Well, heated it. Anyways, I'm quite proud that I didn't destroy my home kitchen since I suck horribly at cooking.

Perhaps I should take my 4 hour nap? Or I could continue watching Gintama episode 74.

I'll decide later...ish.

pockymeji.

nailclipping is a very hard task, but helps math.

I was just clipping my nails earlier and I realized: nail clipping is actually quite challenging. My neck ended up aching for a bit because I had to look down, carefully, at where I was clipping my nails. My eyes hurt because I had to watch what I was doing and my hands definitely ached from holding onto the nail clipper.

I personally have a nasty, gross habit of biting my nails, which is why I don't often clip my nails. I know, it's gross, but I just tend to bite my nails out of a habit which I had for years. I naturally bite my nails when I'm watching anime or a movie. Perhaps it is out of boredom or it's something I just do when something 'exciting' happens and the anticipation or suspense is killing me, which causes me to bite my nails. Who knows.

Afterwards, after clipping my nails, I started understand my math homework easily. I was doing Arithmetic series, sequences and Geometric stuff. Yeah, math...yuck. (Sorry to does who love math...not that any math lovers will be reading this. In fact, no one is :D)

Anyways, before I end this blog and head off to bed because I clipped my nails and it helped me finish my math homework, I want to say: In near future, I will not get a job that involves nail clipping. =P

Night.

what i want.

I really don't know what I want. I hate how I'm being so undeceisive about everything. Like how when I had to choose my IB courses, I don't know what to take: Geo or History? Bio HL or Chem HL? I don't know what I wanted to do in the future: Lawyer or Surgeon. Because of my unknown choices, I decided to take 'everything'. Now I need to take Physics during the summer so I can go into the science department. Basically, I'm taking all 3 sciences.

I feel so troubled.

What do I want? What if, in the end of everything, I don't want to be a lawyer OR surgeon. What if I fail everything? Both Law and Science. Sigh.

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Aside from education, I'm actually really scared. Valentine's day is coming and last last PE class, I overheard X talking. He was talking to Yammy and his friend about how he is planning to confess to the person he likes and Yammy suggested he should buy a rose. Just hearing the word 'confess' made me ran faster, away from them. Afterwards he asked me what class I had. That gave me hope that it might be me, but what if it isn't? He's giving me false hope and that's the worst thing ever. I wish I never heard anything.

To add up to my problems, I don't know what I want. Do I really want him to confess to me? How should I respond? I don't even know if I want a boyfriend, my first boyfriend, nor do I know if I like him enough to accept him. I barely know anything about him. I shouldn't even think about these things since I don't know whether it is me or not. I'm giving myself false hope.

I've been in confusion and somewhat depression these days. I have some friends telling me I should give up on because: he doesn't match me, I could do better and things like that. Am I really better? He probably won't even like me if he realizes I'm such an on/off moody person.

Here's a song that sounds so soothing to me at the moment. (From Dear John.):

Life house
By: Amanda Seyfried

a nice day.

Today, I actually had such a nice day.

I woke up early, 10 am in the morning, on a Saturday without an alarm clock! It was such a pretty baby blue color in my room. I just had such a soothing and refreshing feeling that made me feel so relaxed and peaceful.

I guess I should've done my tutor homework, but instead, I ended up reading one of my classmate's blog. I just finished it a few minutes ago and inspired I am.

To be honest, I have always admire her (not in a lovey dovey way), but I always knew she was smart and pretty. After reading her blog, I found out she is actually very creative. I don't know how to describe, but I just never knew she had that in her. She always seem like the logical type and very studious, confident and all that. Just reading about her complains about our Planning homework made me realize: I really shouldn't judge people by their looks.

Anyways, I found her blog really interesting and that mine is full of complains and 'non-sensable' things (not making sense). I also found some really nice pictures on her blog. She's so inspirational. -admires-

My blog is quite dull..and...repetitive!

Anyways, I also tried listening to classical music and it added more peace to my relaxing day. There really needs to be more days like these. Sigh.

I have also been trying to take more pictures lately. Trying to capture the beautiful things I see, but I guess it's not really working out. With my horrible technique, I just can't seem to capture what I see through the camera's lens.

My vocabulary is also very shallow. I don't know...

The classmate (whose blog I read), she's the one who got my addicted to crosswords which is why I get the newspaper every morning at school. The crossword doesn't help my vocab that much though, sadly. And now, I am into the Sudoku more. Haha.

Anyways, perhaps I should change my blog style now? Less complains. Not that anyone will ever read this blog.

What a nice day :)