Sometimes, I know I should just be grateful for what I have...and I am. I know that I have many things in my life not every kid does, but like every human being at some point of their lives...I want what I don't have.
-sigh- things are just so hectic..chaotic..etc. etc. and as I grow older, I notice how I always want to plan things ahead or at least know what to expect. Even if I want to 'wing' things...I end up creating some sort of plan to 'wing' things. There would always be a plan somewhere...
and at the moment, there isn't. Not only for my future, my summer, but my life right now. I have no idea what's about to come, but I really don't want to stay in this very moment 'cause it sucks.
-sigh- everything is changing. I can't even watch anime anymore...nor read manga...nor watch movies. Don't feel like myself. And it's not really the I can't physically, but for some reason...I just can't bear it. For the past few days, I have been trying to cook and bake, hoping to take my mind off things...but the lack of support really kills a chef's heart. I mean, isn't seeing people happy eating your food that makes the chef happy?
Yeah...I'm eating my own food. Thankyouverymuch.
I need a life. -sigh-