Sunday, June 20, 2010

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as usual, never fail to bring me to tears. this time, it's not because of the terrifying beauty of it, but instead...alphonse!
oh my gosh...i totally envy the bond between the two of them. somewhere inside my heart, i knew that alphonse would sacrifice himself for edward, just like how edward gave up his arm and leg for alphonse's soul. the part where the 'thing' was talking to alphonse's 'body' somewhat feels like it's foreshadowing that edward would go back and get alphonse...but i doubt it would ever be a happy ending because everything comes in a price, or so it was said. doubt edward will be able to get al's soul and body without trading in his...

the beginning did somewhat show only edward himself...i'm so afraid alphonse will just be gone like that. even though he was 'alive', it was unbearable and the only reason to keep him alive was his brother. as for edward, he worked so hard to be able to get his brother back and now that his brother gone...what would he do?

their mom is gone, his brother is gone...hoenhiem....well...hoenhiem isn't exactly a human dad...and i doubt the two of them can be 'family' since edward doesn't even call him 'dad' or anything like al.

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i watched pretty little liars today.
feels like a mix of 'I know what you did last summer' and Gossip Girl.

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-sigh- i feel so bored...and unappreciated, definitely.
i realized how stupid and dumb i am...doing stuff and thinking about stuff so much, not even realizing that people don't care at all.

ex. my obsession rants....i feel really sad that people don't appreciate things as much as i do...haha...like how deep some things could be. well, then again, it p'sses me off when people think some things are deep when they're just bs. haha.

yeah, overall, i just feel very very unappreciated. from what some people told me...some people are taking me for granted, not to over rate myself.
and the dumb thing is...the message isn't getting through my head all the time, neither are they for the 'other' people.


i don't know what's real or not. what's worth it or not. what's right or wrong.

one thing for sure is that i'm going to stop trying for now because i feel like bs and i don't want to continue to feel like bs forever...even if i'm going to be alone for this. if i am, just shows that no one in the freakin' world is listening to a single word i say.

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