realized my insecurities are creeping back again. it makes me feel annoying trying to find reassurance constantly, but i need it. it makes me feel even worse when i feel the frustration and hear denial.
been rethinking about everything i once thought it true...
trying to re-evaluate what i said and what i hope.
is it really realistic? or just my wishful thinking?
that makes me so sad...
feeling so tired and my negative thoughts,
i find,
creeps back once in a while.
it scares me...
i do feel i have been more positive and due to keeping myself constantly occupied, i don't have the time to well up in my own sorrows and be negative.
but sometimes, i find myself so changed that i don't feel like me anymore.
am i really better like this? than who i am?
the person i was when i felt like myself? is that really better?
am i more well liked and more well received this way?
the obvious answer if i actually asked would be no...i should be who i am.
but really, let's be frank, that's not always the case.
its just things feel different.
just ain't the same...and i don't know if its me or not...
or my overthinking and insecurities?
so is the change really a good thing?
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