talking

talked to two of the most important men in my life.
don't know if that resolved anything...
if anything is fixed or got through...

but at least i feel better?
feel like some things did get through.

i miss the old times.
i really need to stop holding onto to the past and look forward.

if only i could do that...
but i feel like once i do, i won't be myself anymore.
-sigh-