things just don't go the way you plan

sometimes, no matter how well you plan things...no matter how nice its starts off with,

the end just doesn't go the way you want.
doesn't end the way you expect it to end.
won't match up to how you imagined.

normally, back then, after feeling this 'disappointment'...i would sulk and be angry. i would be upset and rant about how we/i should just stop having expectations.  stop creating such high ideals because it would only tumble down and crush my own spirits.

for some reason, i don't think that.  i guess i should just change the way i think and feel about this. these 'disappointments' or unexpected endings are what molds our opinions and thoughts.  it's definitely helping me decide what my next move is.

-sigh- i hate it when i sound cliche or trashy. haha.

i miss dad.