Friday, October 21, 2011
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Monday, October 17, 2011
it's during the times of need...
when you figure out who truly cares and who doesn't. it's during the times of need when the people, who actually love and worry for you, step out and lend you a hand.
after being in high school for the 5th year now, i thought i knew who were my friends and who wasn't. i thought my ideas of who cares and who doesn't was already figured out.
but when i really needed help and try to look for help from those people i thought would help, i realized i was wrong. after being denied, i would always get upset and slightly angry because of this shock. i know not everyone has to help you out and it's an honor if they do, but knowing that i am wrong about who i think cares about me after being with these people for 5 years..kind of upsetting.
of course, it is times like these when the people you never really noticed because they don't seem like your 'best friend' or whatever the term is, they reach out. again, i would also experience shock and feel like i want to cry.
really thankful for those people around me. those unexpected surprises that just makes my day.
an now, i feel like i need to re-evaluate my thinking. i somewhat love it when i'm incorrect and it's because of something unexpected that has proven me to be incorrect. this year, i feel like i'm learning so much more about myself, my interests and my personality.
i thought i knew, but guess i was wrong...
even though i don't know what specific career i want to pursue, like how i use to want to be a surgeon for sure, i now feel like i know what i'm interested. still on the path of finding out what it really is, but through this, i'm learning more about myself and feeling more certain than i did when i was focused on 'surgeon'.
time to sleep, survived on nothing but a cup of coffee on an empty stomach.
there goes my health!
after being in high school for the 5th year now, i thought i knew who were my friends and who wasn't. i thought my ideas of who cares and who doesn't was already figured out.
but when i really needed help and try to look for help from those people i thought would help, i realized i was wrong. after being denied, i would always get upset and slightly angry because of this shock. i know not everyone has to help you out and it's an honor if they do, but knowing that i am wrong about who i think cares about me after being with these people for 5 years..kind of upsetting.
of course, it is times like these when the people you never really noticed because they don't seem like your 'best friend' or whatever the term is, they reach out. again, i would also experience shock and feel like i want to cry.
really thankful for those people around me. those unexpected surprises that just makes my day.
an now, i feel like i need to re-evaluate my thinking. i somewhat love it when i'm incorrect and it's because of something unexpected that has proven me to be incorrect. this year, i feel like i'm learning so much more about myself, my interests and my personality.
i thought i knew, but guess i was wrong...
even though i don't know what specific career i want to pursue, like how i use to want to be a surgeon for sure, i now feel like i know what i'm interested. still on the path of finding out what it really is, but through this, i'm learning more about myself and feeling more certain than i did when i was focused on 'surgeon'.
time to sleep, survived on nothing but a cup of coffee on an empty stomach.
there goes my health!
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Saturday, October 15, 2011
kind of just killed my friday
was actually planning on not going to school on friday, but ended up going.
i baked egg tarts, but the crust kind of failed. i think somewhere in the middle, the measurement for butter went off?
i was home alone for basically the whole day/night...
did not do any homework (going to enjoy my morning tomorrow...or today now)
really, really tired
still listening to mat kearney
wondering: why am i doing all these things?
wondering: why am i thinking and worrying about things that makes me feel even worse and more stressed?
talked to many people i haven't spoken to for a while.
noticed and appreciate those special 3 who noticed something. although all 3 don't read this blog.
he's still in my mind and now undeniable is playing (great timing, just when i'm mentioning him)
good night world
i baked egg tarts, but the crust kind of failed. i think somewhere in the middle, the measurement for butter went off?
i was home alone for basically the whole day/night...
did not do any homework (going to enjoy my morning tomorrow...or today now)
really, really tired
still listening to mat kearney
wondering: why am i doing all these things?
wondering: why am i thinking and worrying about things that makes me feel even worse and more stressed?
talked to many people i haven't spoken to for a while.
noticed and appreciate those special 3 who noticed something. although all 3 don't read this blog.
he's still in my mind and now undeniable is playing (great timing, just when i'm mentioning him)
good night world
Thursday, October 13, 2011
undeniable
what i have been listening to non-stop.
-sigh- internal turmoil! D: when this happens, i'm normally moody.
-sigh- internal turmoil! D: when this happens, i'm normally moody.
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
pet peeves
after knowing me for many years and/or reading my blog, do you know what my pet peeves are (or what the main one is)?
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