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I just wasted my Friday and I feel sad about that. I ended up sitting in the couch with a blanket and my bunny, watching mindless television. I don't even know what I ended up watching. I saw some snip-its of ANTM the ending so I could see the fake pictures and stuff. I watched The Next Star, I made myself to. At first, I was only listening to one of the finalist, and she...honestly...wasn't good. I tried to give it a second chance and forced myself to watch another and yeah, disappointment. No offence, I just don't think The Next Star finalists were any good. I think one girl was okay, but I missed her performance. Well, most of the time they were singing, I only hear screaming fans and all that. Either way, I don't think they're good...=='' Even the past contestants didn't do much as in, not much fame anyways. I don't even know who they are. Like for American Idol, I do know Adam Lambert and David Archuleta. xD And some other, but I can't think at the moment...brain dead. You can't really compare, the American broadcasting and the Canadian.

Aside from that, I did manage to watch this movie: 13 on to 30 or something. It's about this girl (1980s?) who turned 13 and she kind of wants to fit in with the stuck up, stupid, plastic popular girls (they made these girls all stereotypical) and yeah. Her good friend, Matt, is all chubby and nerdy, likes to take photos. So those girls takes advantage of her, making her do their homework, and pretending to be her friend by going to her birthday party and told her this popular guy she likes, some football jock, will be going. They go, told her they're playing 7 minutes in heaven and got her into the closet while taking the finished assignment with some of the food from her 'party' and left, leaving her in there.

Matt opens the closet door and finds her blind folded, about to kiss her and she thought he was Chris (the football jock). He was a bit upset since he thought she wanted to kiss him because she knew who he was and actually liked him. She finds out what happened and thinks it was Matt's fault and he did something to make them go away and shuts herself in the closet. Matt's 'dream house' birthday present was in there and it has these 'magic powder' on it and while she was being angry and thumping the shelf behind her, the magic powder fell on her as she was wishing to be 30 year old.

She wakes up and she's 30 years old and with this naked guy beside her, which freaked her out like crazy. Turns out, she's in the future (30 years old) and is the editor of Poise (this fashion magazine she LOVED). She became friends with the popular girl that was in charge back then and etc. Thinks seem so idealistic and perfect and all that, everything she wished for. Slowly, she starts to find out this isn't what she wanted and what an evil person she actually was. She slept with a co-worker's husband, this hockey player, and Matt wasn't her best friend anymore. After the party, it turns out things happened. She became the 'head' of the popular girls and dated the jock, Chris. She was prom queen and all that and now she's working for her favorite magazine!

Oh wow, I forgot to mention her name. The main girl is Jenna. In the future, Jenna was actually selling out some of Poise's monthly edition information to Sparkle, their rival magazine, to secure an editor-in-chief position for herself. She stopped contacting her parents completely. And she was just, very very very fake and evil. She also had a nose job. xD

So yeah, Jenna fins out she really didn't want this life and tried to change it and stuff. She did contact Matt and was trying to figure what happened with him. After being around him longer, she realizes she loves him. He loves her too, all along, but he had a fiancee and they were going to marry.

Anyways, yeah, it was quite an enjoyable movie. Not exactly a must-watch. Not really a depressing movie, but not really a happy one o-o. Well, it was suppose to be funny, but I actually didn't find it that funny. =='''

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Ah, today's Suicide Awareness presentation. I felt so bad for feeling sleepy and tired. I was yawning, but I tried to answer. Our class was silent and dead so yeah, I felt bad that we didn't really answered him. ^^''''
I never knew dark and depressing drawings are a suicidal signs. I like drawing dark and twisted things. Well, it's a style and it just comes to me, the twisted stuff. I'm trying to approach different art styles to see which fits me. I also do get quite depressed sometimes...like when I don't have anything to do and I feel like I'm just wasting time or just...sometimes, things just seem so pointless to me.

I still don't like the fact that I'm going to school everyday. Sitting there. And just like that. I don't really listen to class (once in a while I do) and I just read the textbook once afterwards and I learn things myeslf. I feel like, all these hours I spent at school, I could be travelling! Maybe during science class, I could actually be scuba diving in the caribbeans! Probably experiencing things myself is a better way for me to learn than just sit there and read the textbook.

Hmmm...I have thought of dying. Well, disappearing...actually no, I have thought my brother never being born (which is really mean, I know D:). Like, if he wasn't then I would be the youngest! I would get to be spoiled and all that and I don't need to care about my grades (not that I do) and my parents won't really mind and would say: 'It's okay, she's still young.' Haha!
-I have thought about dying like...after I die, will I be reborned? Reborned as a human living a different life? Reborned as me, exact same me, in a different situation and what difference will it make. Will I even be living again, or will I be in a different world for the afterlives. Is there heaven? H*ll? Where will I belong?

The unanswerable questions.

Of course...I have been emo before, but I will just keep my hands off that topic before I reveal scary things that are inappropriate for happy readers.

You know what's sad? I have mentioned it before, but no one actually knows anything about me. I swear, in this whole entire world, no a soul know anything about me...which is somewhat funny since I'm the type who blurts out everything.

No one in this world know...
what's my favorite color
what's my favorite song
what's my favorite anime
my fav movie
my fav book
my fav drama (asian and western)
my fav belonging
my fav drink
my fav food
my fav actors/actresses (xD)
what I do in my free time
my fav manga
my fav online stories
who inspires me/the people I look up to
my fav place
where I want to go
etc.

Of course, you all know one of my favorite brands: Vivienne Westwood! xDD

I shall go lurk around the net. I didn't blog for a while, I noticed. o-o shockingly!

Night.