again and again.

Once again, is seems like this cycle will never end.

Anyways, so last English class, we had to write. This was the question we had to write a responsive writing/paragraph(?)/essay(?) on:

Do you feel that you're the same person.
To all people? All the time?
To yourself? All the time?

Something like that.
I, obviously, do not think I am the same to all people and to myself all the time since my moods often changes the way I feel about myself. And of course, I am not the same to all people because sometimes...there are just people I don't like and can't get along with.

I'm really moody. =='' I realize probably the only time I get high is during socials with Emma, Kitty, Jenny, Melody and Vasco. No idea why. Sometimes math though.
I'm so tired, just thinking about being high sucked the last bit of energy I had, out of me.

Feel so drained everytime I walk back home and to school. BUT, I have improved! Well, walking to school. I use to take 30 minutes to walk to school, now I take 20-15 minutes to walk to school, isn't that amazing? xD

Hmmm...I really hate how sometimes, some people treat me differently when other people are around compared to when no one is around. It just so...angering. Haha. I also hate the fact that I always use the word 'hate' although I know it's a very strong word. Sometimes, I actually do mean it when I use it...actually...most of the time (like how I hate unresponsive people who completely ruins the fact that you're trying to start a conversation or share something special with them and they're just like...yeah...which motivates me to do the same, lol.)
-I think that's the reason why I end up feeling so inferior to others and uncertain of myself all the time. I find that people seem to look down on me. Like, no one will actually think I'm 'amazing' or 'talented' or whatever, not that I am. But the thing is, I feel like sometimes...people are making it seem like I can't ever be 'right'. Like what I say and what I know is always 'wrong' or have some kind of problem to it compared to their answer or thoughts. I have to be wrong...I can't ever be right. That...really p'sses me off...A LOT.

What makes a person right and what makes a person wrong? I hate biased people. So stubborn and annoying. They just can't view things from other people's point of view and just won't accept that they're wrong...or...it's just me. Joyce can never be right. Feels like that's a fact that applies to everything.

This kind of happened before with a friend of mine. Like...everytime we have a test/quiz or whatever. My friend and I would always have closer marks and I would be like..lower 1 or 2 marks or so. And what got us fighting is that...everytime I got a higher mark...like not just by 1 or 2 points, that friend would kind of make it seem like it's ridiculous I'm doing better and like...it's just not right for me to do well. But now alls well since it's all solved and we talked it out.

Talking about bias...I should work on the social script or work on my English homework...
I'll probably blog later.

Adios.