So it has been a while and I have definitely changed since my last post.
Almost halfway into 2015 and I realized my entire 2015 year so far...is all about work.
My life is work and that is it.
Having a full-time job, I realized I have to schedule everything around my work.
The time I get to meet people? For dinner or the weekends.
I end up having to schedule people early on and feel like a snob when I realize I am fully booked.
No hard feelings, but I really don't have time.
At the end of it all, I end up being too tired and just pass out for the night.
So much for anime and drama catch up :(
Anyways, I am really enjoying my co-op though.
I will probably go in-depth about it another time...but definitely need to get use to blogging more often again! :)
Time to get back to work!
J
Wednesday, May 27, 2015
Wednesday, April 1, 2015
Pet Peeves 2015
I almost typed 2014...
So pet peeves. Just now, I realized one of my biggest pet peeve...something that would trigger my mood and alter my thoughts on people too.
I know I had many in the past, but now I can barely remember them. Maybe I got over them...or they're now insignificant.
However, what I realized that really bothers me is when people (friends & family) can't stand up for me. Whether it's something big or small...I do expect those who are close to me to defend me and be on my side...at least just to show I have their support. By defending me, I don't mean they need to agree with what I think or do, but at least it shows they care for me. (And then they can let me know what they think afterwards and I'll be okay...)
Ugh, my thinking is kind of incoherent due to the steam, but yeah.
I also realized I really can't stand people ignoring me. Especially when we're arguing or fighting. When they just drop the conversation and act as if I'm not even there - when I am still talking to them - it just sends me off. I feel like, at that point, I'm not angry because of the disagreement, but at the lack of respect being shown to me.
-sigh- Just a quick rant before I go to sleep. I really don't want go to bed angry or I won't be able to get up for work.
Family arguments really take a toll on you...mainly because you face them all the time. =_='''
At least it's long weekend, so that's good!
Good Night,
J
So pet peeves. Just now, I realized one of my biggest pet peeve...something that would trigger my mood and alter my thoughts on people too.
I know I had many in the past, but now I can barely remember them. Maybe I got over them...or they're now insignificant.
However, what I realized that really bothers me is when people (friends & family) can't stand up for me. Whether it's something big or small...I do expect those who are close to me to defend me and be on my side...at least just to show I have their support. By defending me, I don't mean they need to agree with what I think or do, but at least it shows they care for me. (And then they can let me know what they think afterwards and I'll be okay...)
Ugh, my thinking is kind of incoherent due to the steam, but yeah.
I also realized I really can't stand people ignoring me. Especially when we're arguing or fighting. When they just drop the conversation and act as if I'm not even there - when I am still talking to them - it just sends me off. I feel like, at that point, I'm not angry because of the disagreement, but at the lack of respect being shown to me.
-sigh- Just a quick rant before I go to sleep. I really don't want go to bed angry or I won't be able to get up for work.
Family arguments really take a toll on you...mainly because you face them all the time. =_='''
At least it's long weekend, so that's good!
Good Night,
J
Monday, March 23, 2015
Sick Feelings
So March is coming to an end soon and this month...it seems like everyone around me is sick.
Surprisingly, I, who always have some sort of health issue, is totally fine.
My brother was dead the week before his Spring Break...dying at home. My coworkers were having the coughs and all. And the friends, half were dead in bed and the other seems to be very prone to contracting whatever is out there in the next few days as well.
Maybe it's because I'm getting healthier and going to the gym and all? Yes. I am sticking to my goal and consistently going to the gym. I have also gained some weight (muscle weight, I hope) and eat like a dinosaur. Of course, after my dear papa bear left, my weight dropped since I was very upset. Also, I started feeling like I was getting contaminated as well so I stopped going to the gym for a week to not spread anything to anyone.
Right now I actually feel like I am getting sick. Day 2 of gym and was hoping to go later before noon on Monday to make it to Day 3, but I have no idea how it will work.
The feeling of being sick makes it feel like everything is so surreal. Just the act of blowing my nose earlier in the washroom, I felt this weird "Whoa, deja vu? No." and this is all really silly and sound silly. I think the whole Steins;Gate is getting into my head. Too much time travelling for one night (4 eps of thriller intensity).
So yes, continuing, I have been just working and going to the gym. Recenly, I have also started going back to shoujo manga as well. Mainly collections of one shot and shorter, completed series. I also love josei since shoujo always takes place in high school. Makes me feel so old since I am in third year now.
Anime obsession is back again and I finally feel like the me in grade 6-8 (and maybe up till 10?). I have also found a new obsession with Modern Family; this is a great break from the intense Steins;Gate whacky trips. Of course, the good old Vampire Diaries and White Collar...although I haven't watched White Collar in a bit due to the other stuff.
Currently feeling gross and sick, but totally craving for some good Earnest Ice Cream...
Tomorrow's game plan? Do research. Do some design. Go gym. Anime. Drama. Read?
Hopefully a chill day since I need one after being out this entire weekend.
Good night,
J
Surprisingly, I, who always have some sort of health issue, is totally fine.
My brother was dead the week before his Spring Break...dying at home. My coworkers were having the coughs and all. And the friends, half were dead in bed and the other seems to be very prone to contracting whatever is out there in the next few days as well.
Maybe it's because I'm getting healthier and going to the gym and all? Yes. I am sticking to my goal and consistently going to the gym. I have also gained some weight (muscle weight, I hope) and eat like a dinosaur. Of course, after my dear papa bear left, my weight dropped since I was very upset. Also, I started feeling like I was getting contaminated as well so I stopped going to the gym for a week to not spread anything to anyone.
Right now I actually feel like I am getting sick. Day 2 of gym and was hoping to go later before noon on Monday to make it to Day 3, but I have no idea how it will work.
The feeling of being sick makes it feel like everything is so surreal. Just the act of blowing my nose earlier in the washroom, I felt this weird "Whoa, deja vu? No." and this is all really silly and sound silly. I think the whole Steins;Gate is getting into my head. Too much time travelling for one night (4 eps of thriller intensity).
So yes, continuing, I have been just working and going to the gym. Recenly, I have also started going back to shoujo manga as well. Mainly collections of one shot and shorter, completed series. I also love josei since shoujo always takes place in high school. Makes me feel so old since I am in third year now.
Anime obsession is back again and I finally feel like the me in grade 6-8 (and maybe up till 10?). I have also found a new obsession with Modern Family; this is a great break from the intense Steins;Gate whacky trips. Of course, the good old Vampire Diaries and White Collar...although I haven't watched White Collar in a bit due to the other stuff.
Currently feeling gross and sick, but totally craving for some good Earnest Ice Cream...
Tomorrow's game plan? Do research. Do some design. Go gym. Anime. Drama. Read?
Hopefully a chill day since I need one after being out this entire weekend.
Good night,
J
Wednesday, March 4, 2015
Things Have Happened
So sadly, I haven't blogged a lot...and I just wanted to let some things out today through this post.
Lots of things have happened recently and what I really want to blog about today is my health. :(
I was thinking back on my 20 years on Earth and realized my health hasn't been the greatest. I remember when I was younger, I never got sick...colds, fevers, or flues.
I think there was a summer I started getting a lot of nosebleeds and felt faint-ish due to the loss of blood. After that, that it kind of just all came at me a bit.
I have Bell's Palsy twice...in elementary grade 4 or 5 once and again in grade 7 or 8.
And then I had the shingles...and not at the typical area on your back, but on my neck and near-ish my face which scared the heck out of my dad.
And now...sadly, I have an infection with my eye and is currently half-blind as I type this.
Of course, all is good, but made me realize how I really need to take care of myself. The twenties are usually everyone's prime, but in the years when I should have been super healthy, my immune system is weakening. My colds and fevers lasts weeks and the symptoms of my colds lasts months (you would know when you take courses with me!).
Anyways, just wanted to mope about my health.
I am still committed to going to the gym and eating more. In fact, I eat like a pig. Large size for pho? Yes, please.
Of course, this week, I can't really make it to the gym since I need to keep my right eye clean...and I can't wear contacts or anything so I probably can't do my running and weights routine.
Working from home to do do some apps review so I will resume that (since I woke up late/started late).
J
Lots of things have happened recently and what I really want to blog about today is my health. :(
I was thinking back on my 20 years on Earth and realized my health hasn't been the greatest. I remember when I was younger, I never got sick...colds, fevers, or flues.
I think there was a summer I started getting a lot of nosebleeds and felt faint-ish due to the loss of blood. After that, that it kind of just all came at me a bit.
I have Bell's Palsy twice...in elementary grade 4 or 5 once and again in grade 7 or 8.
And then I had the shingles...and not at the typical area on your back, but on my neck and near-ish my face which scared the heck out of my dad.
And now...sadly, I have an infection with my eye and is currently half-blind as I type this.
Of course, all is good, but made me realize how I really need to take care of myself. The twenties are usually everyone's prime, but in the years when I should have been super healthy, my immune system is weakening. My colds and fevers lasts weeks and the symptoms of my colds lasts months (you would know when you take courses with me!).
Anyways, just wanted to mope about my health.
I am still committed to going to the gym and eating more. In fact, I eat like a pig. Large size for pho? Yes, please.
Of course, this week, I can't really make it to the gym since I need to keep my right eye clean...and I can't wear contacts or anything so I probably can't do my running and weights routine.
Working from home to do do some apps review so I will resume that (since I woke up late/started late).
J
Monday, January 5, 2015
New Beginnings
First blog post in the New Year!
As cliche as it is...and although I know the New Year tends to be over rated, I am excited to start all over.
This is all just kind of an excuse for people, like me, to tell ourselves we have a fresh start when every next day is technically a new start anyways. I am a little derpy at the moment, so hopefully whatever I type will still be sort of coherent.
I was and am excited for what 2015 will hold for me. Oh, Happy New Year!
I haven't blogged for a while...still sort of out of it.
I tried tumblr-ing, but that didn't work out well. I also tried just writing in a journal...and that didn't work out well either. So, I will try and blog here once in a while.
Already, the new year has been amazing.
I decided to set New Year Resolutions for myself and so far...I've completed two? I feel very blessed and happy I got to celebrate the last day with friends & loved ones and counted down with family (ish). That was amazing and definitely different from my usual stay-at-home-in-bed-by-myself routine I do during Christmas and New Years. In these last four days of the New Year...I learned to snowboard and I got to meet someone new.
I discovered how fun, refreshing, and thrilling night boarding is. It's amazing how not only did I learn to snowboard and did it during the morning (taking a morning bus and seeing the sunrise with friends...felt like a field trip in elementary!), but I got to snowboard at night. The view was spectacular and the people...the people were amazing. It was fun: filled with laughter and bruises!
While I am still suffering from a sore body and bruises covering everywhere...I got to meet someone important today. One of my close friend introduced me to someone special and I still can't stop smiling. It's such an honor I got to spend the day with them, getting to know them better and not just hear about her from him. Played monopoly deal, Wii Mario Party, ate xlb and shanghai food, got bubble tea, and watched one of my favorite movies. Made me so happy how much they enjoyed my recommendation and that they enjoy hearing my movie rant and all that! (I feel cool, yay! Reputation intact!) Today was just awesome. All my nerves I had building up yesterday died.
I know school starts soon, but I just can't wait to see what happens. Already, I have a few dates made for the upcoming few days and I just can't help but feel excitement! I also can't stop thinking about night boarding and feeling honored. Gahh!!
I also need to stop my shopaholic-ness though. Oh my gosh, don't get me started! ...I did another haul last night and now I am patiently looking out for a snowboarding jacket, goggles, gloves, and some base layers!
-sigh- That is definitely an issue! Must save up!
I just want to express my appreciation for everyone (who will not read this blog, haha) for making my winter break so amazing. I learned a lot of about the magic of the Christmas atmosphere and the importance of giving! This year was definitely focused on giving and my attempt to make things more personalized. Hopefully, my goal to reach everyone's feels worked. (:
Time for a new start to this year! Going to be crazy, but I can't wait to stack myself with lots of work and snowboard + be healthy (since I fat this winter!).
Good night,
J
As cliche as it is...and although I know the New Year tends to be over rated, I am excited to start all over.
This is all just kind of an excuse for people, like me, to tell ourselves we have a fresh start when every next day is technically a new start anyways. I am a little derpy at the moment, so hopefully whatever I type will still be sort of coherent.
I was and am excited for what 2015 will hold for me. Oh, Happy New Year!
I haven't blogged for a while...still sort of out of it.
I tried tumblr-ing, but that didn't work out well. I also tried just writing in a journal...and that didn't work out well either. So, I will try and blog here once in a while.
Already, the new year has been amazing.
I decided to set New Year Resolutions for myself and so far...I've completed two? I feel very blessed and happy I got to celebrate the last day with friends & loved ones and counted down with family (ish). That was amazing and definitely different from my usual stay-at-home-in-bed-by-myself routine I do during Christmas and New Years. In these last four days of the New Year...I learned to snowboard and I got to meet someone new.
I discovered how fun, refreshing, and thrilling night boarding is. It's amazing how not only did I learn to snowboard and did it during the morning (taking a morning bus and seeing the sunrise with friends...felt like a field trip in elementary!), but I got to snowboard at night. The view was spectacular and the people...the people were amazing. It was fun: filled with laughter and bruises!
While I am still suffering from a sore body and bruises covering everywhere...I got to meet someone important today. One of my close friend introduced me to someone special and I still can't stop smiling. It's such an honor I got to spend the day with them, getting to know them better and not just hear about her from him. Played monopoly deal, Wii Mario Party, ate xlb and shanghai food, got bubble tea, and watched one of my favorite movies. Made me so happy how much they enjoyed my recommendation and that they enjoy hearing my movie rant and all that! (I feel cool, yay! Reputation intact!) Today was just awesome. All my nerves I had building up yesterday died.
I know school starts soon, but I just can't wait to see what happens. Already, I have a few dates made for the upcoming few days and I just can't help but feel excitement! I also can't stop thinking about night boarding and feeling honored. Gahh!!
I also need to stop my shopaholic-ness though. Oh my gosh, don't get me started! ...I did another haul last night and now I am patiently looking out for a snowboarding jacket, goggles, gloves, and some base layers!
-sigh- That is definitely an issue! Must save up!
I just want to express my appreciation for everyone (who will not read this blog, haha) for making my winter break so amazing. I learned a lot of about the magic of the Christmas atmosphere and the importance of giving! This year was definitely focused on giving and my attempt to make things more personalized. Hopefully, my goal to reach everyone's feels worked. (:
Time for a new start to this year! Going to be crazy, but I can't wait to stack myself with lots of work and snowboard + be healthy (since I fat this winter!).
Good night,
J
Saturday, December 6, 2014
Finals & Relfecting
So it's finals season and I have two more left until freedom...well, freedom from an educational institutional. I will be stuck working almost full time since it's that time of the year! Unfortunately, I think none of the other employees are taking a break either...so no subs, stuck to working five days a week! There goes my hibernation plan...and many of the "hang-outs" I was originally going to have to catch up with people.
The last few blog posts have been 'meh' and I think it will continue to be.
I have been reflecting, as I notice everyone around me is entering a new stage of their lives. We're slowly hitting our 20s and soon after I do, everyone will be 21...legal.
But maybe it's because of work or what not, I noticed as we grow older...it's a given that we experience new things and lose the old. I have already realized that people around me have been experiencing losses or almost have.
...And it's scary.
Never really thought about it and use to always dream of getting older quicker, but now, I dread it more. Not only because I need to start taking responsibilities for my own actions (no more kiddy excuses), but also...my parents will start to grow old.
After losing the old granny I knew since I was young, I realized I still haven't really fully have it in my head what it means to lose someone entirely. I know some people around me have already...
And all these thoughts came to me when I saw a friend's status on Facebook on her loss of a childhood friend. It just got my head turning and yeah...
I still can't imagine and I am fortunate that I still haven't experienced something like that. ):
Don't really know where I'm getting at with this...but I guess I have come to a conclusion that I still look forward to getting older.
Except now, rather than imagining this ideal future I have for myself and how I want things to be, I also need to focus on the present. Despite hearing all the cliche quotes on living life now, YOLO and all that, I didn't really want to follow them. Or I thought I was and realized I was sort of just trailing along. If I died now, I know I would have so much regrets.
These last few weeks, I started planning out the things I really want to do. No excuses. And now, I'm super stoked to do things I always dreamed of doing.
I also decided to just pucker up some courage and go for the opportunities out there. As much as failure can bring color to my cheeks and make me want to crawl in a hole and die, whatever. :)
Super psyched!
Really appreciate the friends (who probably aren't reading this) who has been with me through my indecisiveness. I keep asking the same thing on whether I should apply for this, or whether I should do that...I know it's annoying, especially since I ask again and again.
I also have to apologize to the three good friends who took care of me while I was tipsy or slightly drunk. I wasn't exactly drunk (since I went to washroom by my self and was still able to think with a sober mind), I know I was a handful when I am too talkative and happy. I also know I caused you guys to worry (or surprised you) since you guys have never seen me drink before.
(Japan has trained me well, haha).
Anyways, this winter break, gotta work hard to earn some moola! Gotta make time to spend with loved ones! And I gotta put my goals I set (few blog posts down about the changes I want to make) into action...AKA go to the freakin' gym :'( And clean my room...
Time to study (and watch anime, and read my fanfictions while snacking on potatoes). Peaceeeee
The last few blog posts have been 'meh' and I think it will continue to be.
I have been reflecting, as I notice everyone around me is entering a new stage of their lives. We're slowly hitting our 20s and soon after I do, everyone will be 21...legal.
But maybe it's because of work or what not, I noticed as we grow older...it's a given that we experience new things and lose the old. I have already realized that people around me have been experiencing losses or almost have.
...And it's scary.
Never really thought about it and use to always dream of getting older quicker, but now, I dread it more. Not only because I need to start taking responsibilities for my own actions (no more kiddy excuses), but also...my parents will start to grow old.
After losing the old granny I knew since I was young, I realized I still haven't really fully have it in my head what it means to lose someone entirely. I know some people around me have already...
And all these thoughts came to me when I saw a friend's status on Facebook on her loss of a childhood friend. It just got my head turning and yeah...
I still can't imagine and I am fortunate that I still haven't experienced something like that. ):
Don't really know where I'm getting at with this...but I guess I have come to a conclusion that I still look forward to getting older.
Except now, rather than imagining this ideal future I have for myself and how I want things to be, I also need to focus on the present. Despite hearing all the cliche quotes on living life now, YOLO and all that, I didn't really want to follow them. Or I thought I was and realized I was sort of just trailing along. If I died now, I know I would have so much regrets.
These last few weeks, I started planning out the things I really want to do. No excuses. And now, I'm super stoked to do things I always dreamed of doing.
I also decided to just pucker up some courage and go for the opportunities out there. As much as failure can bring color to my cheeks and make me want to crawl in a hole and die, whatever. :)
Super psyched!
Really appreciate the friends (who probably aren't reading this) who has been with me through my indecisiveness. I keep asking the same thing on whether I should apply for this, or whether I should do that...I know it's annoying, especially since I ask again and again.
I also have to apologize to the three good friends who took care of me while I was tipsy or slightly drunk. I wasn't exactly drunk (since I went to washroom by my self and was still able to think with a sober mind), I know I was a handful when I am too talkative and happy. I also know I caused you guys to worry (or surprised you) since you guys have never seen me drink before.
(Japan has trained me well, haha).
Anyways, this winter break, gotta work hard to earn some moola! Gotta make time to spend with loved ones! And I gotta put my goals I set (few blog posts down about the changes I want to make) into action...AKA go to the freakin' gym :'( And clean my room...
Time to study (and watch anime, and read my fanfictions while snacking on potatoes). Peaceeeee
Wednesday, November 5, 2014
Someone sent me this...
So I am tipsy from Wings Wednesday. Had a mojito, vodka martini and margarita.
I think my tolerance has increased due to Japan!
My good friend sent me this song just because she had the album; I finally opened it to listen to it to calm the mind! >< And it works...plus the effects of a clay mask!
I got my box and finally have another Korean mask to try aside from the Innisfree one (which I really, absolutely hate the packaging of...). Anyways, done Kiehl's too!
I think I will go wash it off...but yeah, I miss my Lana Del Rey so I think I will put the other replayed song up soon. Way too busy with work and SEY and co-op search! My thinking is all weird and fragmented so I will just end this.
I think my tolerance has increased due to Japan!
My good friend sent me this song just because she had the album; I finally opened it to listen to it to calm the mind! >< And it works...plus the effects of a clay mask!
I got my box and finally have another Korean mask to try aside from the Innisfree one (which I really, absolutely hate the packaging of...). Anyways, done Kiehl's too!
I think I will go wash it off...but yeah, I miss my Lana Del Rey so I think I will put the other replayed song up soon. Way too busy with work and SEY and co-op search! My thinking is all weird and fragmented so I will just end this.
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